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Winter Break

by David F. Bello

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1.
Take Two 02:28
you can call this take 2 but im not sure what went wrong with the first i think i found out i left out a phrase in the 2nd verse but nevermind its not important i dont mind mistakes just go back to the first try and never press erase i need to start writing again or else i need to start thinking abt what ill say i cant wait for take 3 should be better should blow away 1 and 2 but anything would its not like im rhyming in this song anymore do do do that was the part i forgot sorry about messing it up
2.
Prison Women 05:11
incarcerated angel, lady courageous you get this little bit of pure sunshine for a u.s. postage stamp (i like to drink unusual beers) cheaper than a dinner date i will answer all letters i am excited about a new life id quit smoking if i ever thought the fact that i would live any longer would make any difference to you close my eyes while im tracing the line of the odd curvature of your spine in the way i use your hands as handles navigating through the cuts on your ankles id quit smoking if i ever thought you would see my dying a long a painful death from cancer as something bad i want to line your insides with the imprint of my veins i am an orchid in boots and levis id have quit smoking if i ever thought i would ever look forward to the extra years at the end of my life
3.
ive been covering the same lyrical ground since birth saying that i feel like the loneliest little boy on earth and the only options that i see dont look so very pretty i believe women should have the right to choose! and accepting those consequences: i accept that i will lose im dying to meet new people im gauranteed to hate and to leave a bad impression on a friend i asked to date you might as well have sent me to an all-boys academy because all the girls here that like me are taken or queer and apparently its none of my business which the owl's question is ringing through my ears it better get itself answered in the next four years im getting closer to the carrot on a rope but im always let down by my friend hope
4.
on the lawn before the watch on the grass under your crotch beneath the blanket and the earth what im thinking im not sure i could leave or i could move burning paths and setting grooves finding nothing on the way i dont know what job to take undecided ill wait until the answer bites my nails undeclared ill let your hair down in subway rails and if you call to me now, its too late if i learn all i can read then ill make the money i will need to feed the children we will have or just a retriever or a lab in a house in the suburbs near a bigger city that we can fear when we dance in clubs downtown well get home at 3am somehow outside lights, smoking in cars collect the smell of empty bars and watch them fill for lack of people in the pictures on its walls
5.
my dear, you know ill always love you i know this may sound trite but when i see other girls in college i just might remove the jewelry you made out of paper, ink, and stones to sleep with other girls when im too lonely to think of you at home i assume after all this fun and good times someday ill get tired i will need some safety net for whenever i retire i want to be there when you die when my hair turns to white and i choose to settle down ill send the letter i will write and come back to town and i pray youll still be there to keep my yearbook warm we can live in my childhood home where our children, too, will be born but i grew up where the mall is now in '97 as a result of business decisions made on top of that, youve got a child on the way and your new boyfriend has already got one in the first grade i want to be there when he dies my friends, theyve all left its just me and my collapse ive been meaning to call you sometime between my naps ive missed you all these years when i moved you even cried and as my heart beats for the last time i want you, here, at my side im starting to lose sight i doubt ill last the night i want you be here when i die i want you to there when i die
6.
my dear, you know ill always love you i know this may sound trite but when i see other girls in college i just might remove the jewelry you made out of paper, ink, and stones to sleep with other girls when im too lonely to think of you at home i assume after all this fun and good times someday ill get tired i will need some safety net for whenever i retire i want to be there when you die when my hair turns to white and i choose to settle down ill send the letter i will write and come back to town and i pray youll still be there to keep my yearbook warm we can live in my childhood home where our children, too, will be born but i grew up where the mall is now in '97 as a result of business decisions made on top of that, youve got a child on the way and your new boyfriend has already got one in the first grade i want to be there when he dies my friends, theyve all left its just me and my collapse ive been meaning to call you sometime between my naps ive missed you all these years when i moved you even cried and as my heart beats for the last time i want you, here, at my side im starting to lose sight i doubt ill last the night i want you be here when i die i want you to there when i die
7.
i stay in hotels every night so you wont find me i am invisible
8.
dont drink that much medicine if you dont feel like throwing up if you die with your head on my pillow ill consider myself blessed with luck i could never dispose of your body i want to save it in my home in a room we reserved for our first baby when hes grown i was out with my friends drinking on the night that they found your body with your backpack still on your shoulders holding everything that you stole from my family i wish i had been at the river when the search party had ceased surely not with the dogs in the forest or the missing persons police with the sunscreen still in my nostrils and your lisptick still drawn on my glasses ill apologize to your brother he can have the books from all of my classes the sounds from your back porch wont trip me up anymore i just need to see the mess off the clothes splilled on your bedroom floor
9.
i can still smell you in my living room i still find hairs on the couch my phone still rings occasionally and i still get your coat when i go out i can still smell you in the fireplace i still find bone in the ashes when i sleep with my head on the floor after each day passes
10.
Rubberneck 04:24
the ony way ill sketch your profile is in a shadowbox because i cant see what you like look, but i trust my rocks pasty old white even though i might i know not to forsake a face like aspirin never sacharinne but you can cure my headache you can read my numbers if you deal out a fresh deck spell out my accident if you stare down and rubberneck when you stay here im an engineer but i wanted to play guitar but then i signed up you amde your mind up and i bought us a brand new car be my marge simpson while i unfasten your new black bra the back of your couch youre a red carpet! and youll be my downfall
11.
Yukon 02:38
im planning on writing more songs about you im planning on making good use of that dusty guitar in my room im gonna buy a car, im getting away im goign to canada soon and im never coming back, no, im never coming back to you im planning on breaking some heads when i get up north i heard rumors that youre planning on taking over the government is scared, you cut off all your hair i cant let the keys get lost in the gears im coming back for you, im coming back after all these years years passed, years passed and im not gonna break the rules i set when i left im planning on shooting myself in the head when i return and screaming every lyric like the letters make my teeth burn im breaking all my rules, im taking myself out im turning back on everything that im all about im killing myself if you wont come back with me im done, i quit i know im done with this ive finished something that wasnt at all what i started
12.
(instrumental)
13.
let us see the graves of our fathers so that we may rise up just like them one day let us die in the fields like our fathers and they can burn our bodies away so my son wont have to believe there some spot of land that ill never leave that he must find before he leaves his home and mother dies of the plague because a tomb is only a resting place where our bodies rot and take up space and our souls prepare for flight and say "goodnight to the world" well, our hearts burst out in plastic and our feet break away from the weight see our hearts burst out in public i heard the view is great from the balconies over the streets where the kings and queens, troops, armies, and fleets watch from safety where no one can see through the thick layer of dirt throw my body from the side of the ship im riding whenever i may die on the voyage to whatever distant land id rather flost forever than be buried in sand farewell, earth! you have treated me well, but now i must go

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released January 1, 2005

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David F. Bello Philadelphia, Pennsylvania

I sing for The World is a Beautiful Place & I Am No Longer Afraid to Die. This is my solo project.

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